Letters to Max - no calm in sight

Dear Max,

Not going to lie, the last few days have been pretty tough. You’ve developed this rather annoying habit of crying for not apparent reason. Not sure if you’re just going through a growth spurt or being difficult, but it’s certainly causing me and your momma some issues. Yesterday was particularly bad because you just refused to calm down, I wasn’t sure if it was food or gas, and when I gave you food you just didn’t want to take that much. And there wasn’t all that much gas coming out of you. If it is a growth spurt, that’s great, it should only last a few days but there’s nothing we can really do I guess. Oh, and you seem to have some issues passing motion as well, though is it because of formula or otherwise I have no idea. It’s this damned uncertainty and lack of control again which you seem to be really great at introducing.

On the bright side we did manage to bathe you and bring you out for visits to the gynae. Strictly speaking it wouldn’t be necessary but it certainly helps. I am so so tempted to just ask my Mum to look after you in the times when we’re out. After all, you’re probably not going to remember who was burping and feeding you anyway for the first few months. I guess that’s also why they have confinement nannies to get through this period. It makes total sense.

As an experience though, I don’t understand why anyone would want to go through this multiple times. We were just as the gynae and ran into another couple who had just had their second child and they say it changes, and it gets better.

Hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you’re in it. Especially when we just seem to be taking 2 steps forward and 1 step back when it comes to knowing how to deal with you.